Be yourself; Everyone else is already taken.— Oscar Wilde.
“Serenity in Sobriety”
Mean to you?
My name is Nathan Findlay and Welcome to my Blog. “Serenity in Sobriety” I chose to call it this because it represents what I am striving for in my life right now and it leaves it open for others to interpret what it may mean to them. “Peacefulness in an Addiction Free Life”. What is addiction though? We all know what society brands that term and words come up as; Druggies, Alcoholics, Homelessness, Thieves, Ungrateful, Vindictiveness, Manipulative, Unworthy, Untrusting people that make everything they touch worthless. What it means to me?…. its who I am. I am an addict, addicted to alcohol and it started to steal my life from me at young age. It separated my true self that I was supposed to be to someone that used alcohol to soothe and comfort my emotions and feelings while stealing my identity and everything that was about me. Don’t get me wrong I had some good times and great memories that involved and didn’t involve drinking like my daughters birth Oct 9th 2006 but leading up to her birth I was scared, young and drunk a lot of the time because I didn’t want to feel those feelings of being accountable for anyone but myself or having to grow up Mentally, Emotionally, Spiritually and Physically so to suppress them I drank to feel comforted and fill my emptiness with nothing basically.
In the long run I will be sharing more and more of my own stories and personal experiences throughout this blog but I want to touch on key points I believe in and that Addiction isn’t just about Drugs and Alcohol, Its about anything that has/had made our lives unmanageable and that we were powerless over it. and that its not just about addictions, its trauma in our life that started young or recently, it changes us for the worse and we forget what we should be as a human or ourselves. We lose direction and we act or react in unfavorable ways towards others. This blog is about my Vulnerability to be Open Hearted to anyone and everyone, To talk through my heart with passion and compassion without compromising Empathy for others.